Paul Castellano My First Girlfriend Helena
How Janet became my Queen has to make a lot of people angry in Queensbridge. But had I hooked up with one of them, I could have no longer been concealed. They could not see me in the light they are being exposed to now, because everything we did was of covert status and still is. It is very concealed, but we all know how government documents seem to leak over time as it security level reduces. But that changes nothing.
I will give the title of first girlfriend to Helena Harrison. If I was a normal person, who was to progress in life, through formal education and public accomplishments, it would have been with her. She was my first love, I love her so much I could never tell her, because I was afraid. She was smart and she loved me from the beginning. But it was not meant to be.
I remember how I always missed up when the chances was given to me in so many occasions. God wouldn’t allow it for some reason. This I understand now!
With her, I would have been the first black president, but the way I did it, we conquered the world, because they underestimated me. This is something until this day Helena could never do. She knows what I can do! She knew me as a child in a way I do not think I allowed with anyone else to discover, yet she never knew it.
There were many girls and there was Helena when I was just a little boy. Like Mona, Dante Bush big sister, she was older, but I use wait around the front just to see her come home. Everyone did, she was super fine. But now Paul Castellano, even as a boy he screwed older woman, but Paul, he had to be lonely. This is the part that hurts most. Use your imagination. “I still feel Mona I call her the finest woman in the world,” People think I enjoyed a life. I cannot even feel, I just know this stuff. What I feel is all the rejection and loneliness. Because people really do not know who they dealt with always. While I might have done some exiting stuff, it is just memory.
HelenaI still can feel until because I share a special moment with her. I was drowned by Dante Bush in a lake I could never swim well and he grabbed my legs and pulled me down, Raymond, I cannot recall his last name, saved my life and gave me CPR and I saw Helena in an outer body experience crying “don’t die, don’t die,” I was looking down on her and when I woke up there she was crying “don’t die.” But yet I could never love her like a normal child. I was deprived of my childhood. But I know she will always know me, because I saw her outer body, crying for my life to continue!
Rev. Frank Paul Jones – aka Apostle Paul Castellano
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